frustrated with current Life

being frustrated the whole day. not in good mode i think, wake up super "early" today (2pm) haha...

then my sister start to bla bla at me already. can you please stop, i need a break...i come back home not to hear you blabbing, i need a rest and a peace of mind out of 2 weeks of tiredness and busyness. can you spare me. sigh

somehow, i just wonder, where is my patient....did i lost my patient?

really need to cover my head with pillow and think about it. God, help me to find back my patient and passion.

being "Moderate" Good for us ?

human always like to make moderate decisions in their life. that because they cant make instance decision in their life. people tend to make moderate decision because they do not know what they want. that why we have "ANYTHING" drink- (for details, go to this URL
http://dtti.wordpress.com/2007/05/27/whatever-and-anything-soft-drinks/)

the drink is just an example.

do you think that standing in between the YES on NO is the best choice of you decision.

do you think when we come out to the market place, do your boss want an employee that cant make a rigid decision. if putting yourself under your boss's shoes, do you want this kind of people to be your subordinate?
because of scarcity, people need to make decision and therefore there is an opportunity cost involved in our decision. the outcome of our decision will not be shown unless we work on it.

Success or Failure, which will you choose in your life? will you choose to stand in between of the line because you do not know what you want. you'll want to get an opinion from your close friends before you make a decision. let me ask you, do your friends know better than your ownself? (actually, in our mind and heart,we already know what we want but we always want a final confirmation to make sure that we had make a right decision out of the choices) many things in our life need us to make decisions. whether the decision we make (right or wrong), we have to accept the consequences by and the outcome.

P.S
have confident in yourself while making decision ya :)

i'm Sorry for what i had Done, SORRY

it's 3.15 am now, i'm still in front of my computer. thinking of someone that had stop talking with me for a month. she angry with me? (i DONO), she dont like me (i DONO). there are many DONO in my mind. i'm very particular on this matter, just that i really dono (DONO again) how to solve it.

this is my first time i make a person stop taking with me. God, provide me with wisdom, tell me how to encounter the bitterness of my heart. i dont feel want to face her face to face just because i dont want to make both of us feel awkward when we seeing each other.

i'm still care about her altought she doesnt care about my existance anymore. i will continue to show my care to her in my heart. thing i can do is just pray for her, hope she will have a happy and blessed day. i started to have a peaceful heart again, i love this feeling, probably this is the way that God want us to show our love to our love one. not having the one we love but wishing the best thing pour upon our love one.

Reasons to BLOG

Basically, why we need to Blog? for the purpose of storing our good and bad memories so that we can recall back what we had experience and what we had gone through in our daily life, for sharing purposes, for your friends to update you so that you are not neglected.

there are bunch of reasons that we can give (human nature, cant help it) because human always give accuses and reasons in their life, when we do something wrong, the first sentences that we can think of would be BECAUSE of the....we always point finger on and blaming other rather fixing the situation.(not all human are like that- don't get me wrong) at least there are few i know really make them self accountable for their wrong acts. .....(Sorry, out of topic- too EMO already)

frankly, what the purpose? for me, blogging really time consuming....then why i Blog?
it happened after seeing "some people"'s blog give me an inspiration and the fire to start a blog. sometimes, there are too many event happened in our life, and probably we tend to forget about it after the day pass by. (human always like to look back- human nature again, that why we have to study History)

i think blogging can be a tool to develope a human's characters in term of their maturity, ways of thought, habit, persistency in performing task etc.

most importantly to express out our internal feeling that we choose not to voice it out verbally in our daily life - "dissatisfaction, hates, dislike, vulgar words, negative stuff that store in our human brain". i think most human want their difficulties, hardship to be heard and comforted by someone that they trust (Good friends, Good peers). i think we will feel released after sharing our problems with someone (choose listener that can comfort you, not those that worsen the situation).

P.S
my friend, if you feel that you need someone to share, i'll always be there for you.

God bless